A Photograph Of Oxygen For A Dying Man!

I didn’t know you and now I’ll never have to chance. I didn’t give
you the chance to know me because I blamed you for so many things that
went wrong in my life. I was abandoned and left to grow up without a
father, without a strong male role model, someone to tell me he was
proud. But I regret not letting you in my life when you tried these last
few years. Scars heal but death takes hope with it. I know this is too
late but father, I love you and I am sorry. Half of the blood in me
belongs to you and with every drop of that I will do what I can to make
you proud of me now.
 
R.I.P James Harris Hanson.
17.03.1956 - 02.11.2010

I entered her room through a confidently left open window; I think she enjoyed the breeze.
She slept with the covers off leaving her underwear in full view.
Her arms resting in awkward positions, her legs crisscrossed at the ankles.
I redirect my eyes up toward her mouth her lips left the tiniest bit open letting out the softest whistle every time she exhaled.
For the first time I find myself mesmerised, fascinated and side tracked from what I came here to do, to end a world.
“Wake up Henry, Wake up”, the voice tells me. “You have work to do” I snap out of it.
I focus and I feel that darkness come over me again.
I am now looking at her body imagining how beautiful it’d look hanging upside down, bleeding out.
I reach into my jacket pocket and I pull out my knife.
I step lightly on the hardwood floor being careful not to wake her.
Usually this wouldn’t bother me but in the next room another girl is fast asleep, the television still blaring and her lamp still on.
But I’ll leave her be, for now.
I focus, once more.
I lean down and softly slide her silky hair through my fingertips.
Beneath her whistling lips I hear nothing, no voice, it’s just me.
I need this.
I gently move her body so she is lying on her back; if her eyes were open she’d be staring into mine.
I plunge the knife deep into her stomach, over and over and over again.
She wakes up and looks right into my eyes now she knows she’s met the devil.
I’m a different person when I’m doing what I love.
And with the swift slice of her throat I end it, her torture, and my bliss.
But there will be others.
After making sure I left nothing to tie me to this I exit using the front door, locking it behind me.

I am that part of you that you hide.
I am that height you’ve never reached.
I am that power you couldn’t handle.
I am that worst kind defeat you’ll ever taste.

I am Henry K. Belford.

The wind, A tiny whipser, Her waiting ears
I give flight to all the reasons I need you here
Your face has painted beauty on these walls
But as I float does gravity scream “fall”
I search for you, for me. the softest landing
With this passion I find truth and understanding
That when you love with everything you are
Your heart can fly the miles, regardless of how far.

You look a picture in that blue dress
For the first time I think I’m nervous
I can’t even look at you without losing my breath
I took a picture so out of focus
For the first time I think I’m speechless
I’ve lost every single word

My pulse has left me
My hands are shaking
My heart is bouncing
My hands are shaking, I’m a wreck!

I’m usually so cold when it comes
But now I don’t have to fight this winter chill alone
I fell in love with you when you said
I could feel your pretty eyes wrapping around my bones

Stars adorn the sky
This love is more real than every drop of blood in both our bodies
With petals at my feet
I kneel down on just one knee
Will you be my forever and always?

When the earth falls from beneath our feet
We’ll stay calm, no need speak
It’s not every day we get to use our wings
(I promise to always be right there when you need to be repaired)

I’m usually so cold when it comes
But now I don’t have to fight this winter chill alone
I fell in love with you when you said
I could feel your pretty eyes wrapping around my bones

I lost a thousand lungs full of breath that night
It was so cold you could see it
And I don’t think that I correctly pronounced a word
Oh!
And I don’t think that I correctly pronounced a word

(Stars adorn the sky)
This love is more real than every drop of blood in both our bodies

As irony will tell you
I felt that drowning feeling more above the water than I do right now
And I do this all for you
There’s an array of colours sprawled across the sky like an awkward rainbow
It’s something beautiful after the worst

Roll up the windows
I’ve surrender to my fate
As the car hit the water
The memories came flooding back
Roll up the windows
I’ve surrender to my fate
As the car hit the water
The memories came flooding back

A little late but it’s worth my last breath
I loved, the me I was when I was with you
Will you forgive me, before I forget myself?

It feels like a lifetime but I haven’t hit the bottom yet and I’m still awake
Hands down this is the most alive I’ve felt, I’m so close to the end
I can’t describe how at peace I feel when I dream of her
I escape unlike the frozen blood in my veins tonight, tonight

Minutes have past me by
And a part of me wants to see a loving hand break the surface
Or quickly flip through the pages of this story
Where’s the flash before my eyes?
Where’s the short film on where i went wrong?

Roll up the windows
I’ve surrendered to my fate
As the car hit the water
The memories came flooding back
With no signs of struggle
I’m sure he went peacefully
We found a necklace in his hand
And dear are these your initials?

It’s my way of saying goodbye
A little reminder of your diamond eyes
I fell apart in, i fell apart inside them
Beside my bed, on the side you used to sleep on
You’ll find these words…

Although you’ll never see me alive again
You’ll feel me more than ever

Dear, I’ll watch over you, I’ll protect you, I will keep you safe

Roll up the windows
I’ve surrendered to my fate
As the car hit the water
The memories came flooding back
With no signs of struggle
I’m sure he went peacefully
We found a necklace in his hand…

As I breathe in deep
I trust the wind tonight
You drag me to see
The waves look so lovely
I turn to a girl now
Without a face or a name
She can’t say a word
But I feel the same

Hold me down
What’s something safe to say?
I love the sound
Of you voice when you ache for me
Hold me up
I’ve found something safe to say
And I love you enough
To not beg you to stay.

As I fight for air
The truth walks on my skin
I’ve planned my escape
But one I can’t believe in
I walk steps of a man
Without a structure or lifeline
He’s died one hundred times
But I know I’ll be just fine

Hold me down
What’s something safe to say?
I love the sound
Of you voice when you ache for me
Hold me up
I’ve found something safe to say
And I love you enough
To not beg you to stay.

As winter escapes my fingers
like she did that august night
The irony comes crashing down around me
As the breeze breaks all my bones
I will not let this song forgive me
And I will close my eyes and drift off to sleep

As I breathe in deep
I trust the wind tonight
As I breathe in deep
I trust the wind tonight
As I breathe in deep
I trust the wind tonight
As I breathe in deep….

Hold me down
What’s something safe to say?
I love the sound
Of you voice when you ache for me
Hold me up
I’ve found something safe to say
And I love you enough
To not beg you to stay.

Here is my heart…
I know its not much
But its all I have to give
Promise you’ll guard it
You were the keeper from the start
for you I lived.

I won’t lie but darling I can’t do this much longer
I can feel your tears roll down my back and they puddle on my shoulder
This is the deepest of loves that will be let go, not ever one is saved
I’ve dug the shallowest of graves
 
She wouldn’t save herself
I tried, I died, I died
I couldn’t save myself
I tried, I died, I died
 
Even though I’m not there to kiss you, or to hold you
I’ll let you know with little signs
That I’m still here, watching over you
 
Boom, this is could be your end
But you’re above suicide my friend
My time was up, I had to go
This disease won’t wait for no one
 
Oh, I am safe and well
But you’re not and I can tell
But pretty baby don’t give in
Cause pretty baby doesn’t give in
 
When I was lying on my deathbed
I had so much time to relive
All the beautiful moments that we shared
When you were crying by my deathbed
I had so much time to relive
All the tragic moments that had disappeared
 
Even though I’m not there to kiss you, or to hold you
I’ll let you know with little signs
That I’m still here, watching over you
 
(This wish at a well placed time one, one, one, one)
 
If I could go back to change one thing
It would be…

He has her beauty in his eyes now
As she stares right through his skin
Can she feel his trembling heart
as I bounces off his ribs?

He whispers “don’t let go”
So she grabs his arm so tight
Their fingers stay entwined
Far beyond the morning light

Dear grace, I write to you
Of the night and day we spent
Chasing away the sunrise
I knew right then I won’t forget

I love and still I search
For the girl that made my heart
Bounce off of my ribs
Skip, stop and then restart